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To Write Love on Her Arms...

So last night a car full of us went to TWLOHA at UB and it was amazing! Right now we're working on getting them to our campus. I have a feeling that this is going to be the start of something incredible here since this all just fell in to place so quickly to begin with.

Ever since this summer I have been even more passionate about this movement then ever because i have dealt with 2 sucicides in this past year that should have easily been interventions for, IF the people around them knew the signs and what to do. I do not blame myself for their deaths but I am mad that they were people so close to me that I was unable to do anything for because I was away at school. So, after the second one I decided that I had to do something, the most that I could to create the awareness and to help those who need the attention and help since I can't do it directly.

So, hopefully this really kicks off and there can be a chapter created as a result of it too. This is my beggest goal for this year...

The Shack

I just got done reading one of the most amazing books that I have ever encountered!!!
The Shack by William P. Young is an amazing story about a severely broken relationship that God so desperately and persistently tries to mend.
This man lost his little 6 yr old girl to a serial killer and didn't find the body, only where she was killed.
Years later, he receives a letter in the mail to meet back where she was killed, signed by God.
There is so much that happens on that little trip. God is revealed to him outside of the boxes that religions so often put Him in and it is amazing! This is a great read for anyone who is having any struggles with God, especially in trusting Him, or with them selves, or just wanting to see God in a different light that most of us have been raised to see Him.
I could take something new from this book every time i read it. So many personal encounters and talks that are so profound. It showed so many things about myself that I didn't realize, good and bad. You can't rush your way through this book, it definitely makes you think.

the apple and the picker

So it turns out I'm one of the apples that got picked. I'm very glad i got picked and I'm enjoying the ride. it's like everything just happened out of the blue and life took a turn that I didn't see coming and I'm glad it did. i just hope i don't turn into a rotten apple. I'm scared of that. It feels like I always find ways to make things go bad and ruin them. I get so scared. I don't want to make the same mistakes as my mom. I don't want to spend 20 years with the wrong guy. I don't want to rely on someone who will decide they don't want to be there anymore. I don't know how to rely on a guy. My mom always ran the house and did everything because she had to. She raised me to be that way so I wouldn't screw myself over.
Until my picker. I'm okay if he opens doors for me or pays for me. I don't do things to prove that I don't need him, only want him. i don't need to be so independent with him and this scares the hell out of me! I don't know why I'm like this with him, but I like the fact that I can be, as scary as it is. I'm afraid of not being afraid. Ha ha, how does that work? I don't know how anything works with me. The next step is where my last picker threw me back at the tree. I just hope this one doesn't but if he does, I know life goes on and I will too. There's more peace in me this time. But, there's also so many more questions. But, this time it's going to be something I cherish and not over analyze to the death.
The whole point of being together is finding out if there's a forever. My ideas and plans are not the same as God's, so I can't go by that. I just have to trust and enjoy and continue to seek God. As long as I do that, everything else will fall into place. I'm not meant to spend my whole life questioning myself and if this is what God wants. My heart is genuinely after Him, so I am going where He's leading me and I am meant to enjoy the ride and cherish the memories, not regret all the wrong turns. That's part of the amazing journey I'm on! Seeing where paths lead me. All of them will eventually lead me to the one I was supposed to be on. They're just scenic routes. I love nature and the scenic views. so, for now on i will enjoy the ride and make the most of everything and be at peace knowing that everything in my life is in God's hands.

Joshua 1:9

So I'm sitting in this tree, trying to figure out how to keep climbing to the top cuz I see this juicy apple. But in the mean time there has been this other apple, and it looks good, it's pretty much at level I'm at right now but is just a little ways around the tree. It look different than the apple up top to. I can't decide what to do and the longer I take the more I'm liking the apple right near me. I almost want to take a bite of it and I haven't picked it yet. I've done this before and I soo see my pattern. I really wish there was some little birdy that could fly around this stupid tree and get a better look at the apples for me. At least a wind to blow them so maybe I could catch a glimpse of the other side and check for bad spots...frustration! I'm half tempted to just jump off this stupid tree and go hide in a hole or something for a while and see if there will be apples left when I come out. If they're anywhere close to becoming rotten I could just wait it out in case. Idk. I don't want to hurt anyone but I need to think about myself too, but there are so many stinking factors now. I'm not that good at math.